The Cub Your Mother Warned You About (jrcubindy) wrote,
The Cub Your Mother Warned You About

Sometimes I can seem kinda standoffish. I don't mean to be. I've just always had a tendency to stay inside my own head since childhood. It was easier than trying to fit in and to be honest, more satisfying at times.

I find that a lot of times, when I do reach out, it's not really worth it. People have trouble understanding where I'm coming from or what I'm saying or thinking. So I get funny looks, smart ass remarks or the "smile and nod" treatment. Not sure which of those I hate more.

So I withdraw. But that works against me, too. People become so accustomed to that, that when I do reach out, I'm practically invisible or they just don't have the time because other people are more accessible.

I suppose I could do what everybody else does; go to the clubs and bars and run the streets all the time. But it would be a lie. I'd be doing something I didn't really enjoy just to try and fit in. And that thought just honestly sickens me.
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